11.2.11
9.2.11
Frustrated
You're the itch that I can't scratch
The bead of sweat running down my back
The heavy child sitting on my lap
The dripping faucet to my afternoon nap
The perfect egg with a fatal crack
The bead of sweat running down my back
The heavy child sitting on my lap
The dripping faucet to my afternoon nap
The perfect egg with a fatal crack
3.2.11
Race to the finish.
Race is a socially constructed concept. It has no biological backup or scientific basis, it's simply a free-floating idea based upon humanity's observation of physical traits, and the stereotypes we attach to these traits. There's no biological or genetic foundation for the grouping of people according to race, but it's a concept that we all generally adhere to quite readily, without necessarily thinking through the consequences.
I had an extremely interesting and challenging class today with my Comm T&F class today. Essentially, we studied race, how it's the ultimate communicative concept, and how we all essentially adhere to this inexact dividing line with such rigidity that we end up justifying things like land appropriation, the Holocaust, apartheid, eugenics, internment, segregation, slavery....the list goes on. Kudos to my prof, who managed to do a very sensitive, intelligent, and insightful talk on concepts that can bring many people to riots.
That doesn't mean the class was easy to sit through: I have a chronic case of empathy, and it was more than disturbing to see things like Michael Richards' (best known as Kramer on Seinfeld) break down during his comedy act and exhibit some of the most vulgar and raw racism I've ever actually witnessed in a non-fiction setting. Pictures of grossly anatomically caricatured African Americans in historical documentation were also a part of the examples given, along with a clip from Top Gear on "Mexicans". For me, this experience was extremely uncomfortable, for two reasons: first, because I empathized for both the people who had to deal with the way they were so inaccurately portrayed, and secondly, because I am a white person observing how people from my ethnicity have essentially trashed everybody else, or developed some sort of superiority complex.
I can't do anything about my skin colour. I'm white, I will always be white (unless I'm embarrassed, sick, sunburnt, cold, or dead, in which case I can be a veritable rainbow of colours)...but like everyone else in the world who doesn't want to be Michael Jackson, I can't do anything about my race. I am also incapable of changing the mindset of any people who are racist, white or otherwise. And while I can do my best to be a good influence, there are no guarantees.
This is an issue that has hit close to home for me in the past little while due to the fact that my boyfriend of almost a month isn't white, and the fact that this was an issue with some of the people I'm close to was a bit of a shock to me. It broke my heart a bit, confused me, and really made me think a lot about how people are such flawed creatures. We really have no idea what we're doing sometimes. This guy is one of the strongest, funniest, and kindest people I know. He's one of the very few people I know who will be honest with themselves, and will genuinely look for what the right thing to do is. He's been there for me in some of the toughest times I've ever faced. Even before we were dating, we were close for a long time and the whole "race" thing--while sometimes funny (he makes fun of me cause I can't dance, I tease him about his hatred of cold weather and his huge, curly hair...pretty much an afro at this point) isn't so much an issue. With us, anyway. But some people can't look beyond that, which drives me up the wall. Stereotypes are only stereotypes; and people are so much more than the labels we put on them.
I can't change the whole world. But I can change my world: do my best to salvage the relationships that are important to me, cut out the ones that are a waste of time, and just keep going. Racism is such a bizarre, unnecessary evil, and I'm completely weary of it. I don't refuse to give people a chance based on race, and I don't favour one over another. Every person's an individual, and ought to be treated as such. Personally, I don't want to be judged based on the transgressions of every person who's ever fallen under the category of "white".
We're all a part of the human race, after all...and that's all that matters.
I had an extremely interesting and challenging class today with my Comm T&F class today. Essentially, we studied race, how it's the ultimate communicative concept, and how we all essentially adhere to this inexact dividing line with such rigidity that we end up justifying things like land appropriation, the Holocaust, apartheid, eugenics, internment, segregation, slavery....the list goes on. Kudos to my prof, who managed to do a very sensitive, intelligent, and insightful talk on concepts that can bring many people to riots.
That doesn't mean the class was easy to sit through: I have a chronic case of empathy, and it was more than disturbing to see things like Michael Richards' (best known as Kramer on Seinfeld) break down during his comedy act and exhibit some of the most vulgar and raw racism I've ever actually witnessed in a non-fiction setting. Pictures of grossly anatomically caricatured African Americans in historical documentation were also a part of the examples given, along with a clip from Top Gear on "Mexicans". For me, this experience was extremely uncomfortable, for two reasons: first, because I empathized for both the people who had to deal with the way they were so inaccurately portrayed, and secondly, because I am a white person observing how people from my ethnicity have essentially trashed everybody else, or developed some sort of superiority complex.
I can't do anything about my skin colour. I'm white, I will always be white (unless I'm embarrassed, sick, sunburnt, cold, or dead, in which case I can be a veritable rainbow of colours)...but like everyone else in the world who doesn't want to be Michael Jackson, I can't do anything about my race. I am also incapable of changing the mindset of any people who are racist, white or otherwise. And while I can do my best to be a good influence, there are no guarantees.
This is an issue that has hit close to home for me in the past little while due to the fact that my boyfriend of almost a month isn't white, and the fact that this was an issue with some of the people I'm close to was a bit of a shock to me. It broke my heart a bit, confused me, and really made me think a lot about how people are such flawed creatures. We really have no idea what we're doing sometimes. This guy is one of the strongest, funniest, and kindest people I know. He's one of the very few people I know who will be honest with themselves, and will genuinely look for what the right thing to do is. He's been there for me in some of the toughest times I've ever faced. Even before we were dating, we were close for a long time and the whole "race" thing--while sometimes funny (he makes fun of me cause I can't dance, I tease him about his hatred of cold weather and his huge, curly hair...pretty much an afro at this point) isn't so much an issue. With us, anyway. But some people can't look beyond that, which drives me up the wall. Stereotypes are only stereotypes; and people are so much more than the labels we put on them.
I can't change the whole world. But I can change my world: do my best to salvage the relationships that are important to me, cut out the ones that are a waste of time, and just keep going. Racism is such a bizarre, unnecessary evil, and I'm completely weary of it. I don't refuse to give people a chance based on race, and I don't favour one over another. Every person's an individual, and ought to be treated as such. Personally, I don't want to be judged based on the transgressions of every person who's ever fallen under the category of "white".
We're all a part of the human race, after all...and that's all that matters.
31.1.11
Jesus talk.
Today, I was accosted by two Campus for Christ members in the tunnels.
To be honest, it was almost funny. I was sitting at a table in the area between the library and my next class, making notes in my film textbook with my laptop open. Besides me, the table was empty. Then, two girls came over. Initially I assumed they wanted to ask what the time was or something like that. But they were a little too awkward and hesitant. Eventually though, it came out that they were from C4C and wanted to chat about "spiritual things".
This was clearly a "evangelism training" session for the younger girl. To be honest, I forget both of their names now too...not that I'd name them anyway. But to be truthful, they probably forgot mine too. The older one, a pleasantly pretty blonde, did the majority of the question-asking and was very obedient to her script. I know because I've seen it before. Ask about background, find points of similarity, share elements of own story with at least 40% relevancy, and reference group that you belong to/work with. The other girl didn't say much, other than her name and the occasional affirmative head nod.
Why me? Probably because I'm a non-threatening white girl who looks somewhat academic and also kind of like a softy. All of which are true, which leads me to believe that stereotypes are sometimes not in my best interest.
It was funny because they immediately assumed and were prepared for a background I didn't have, for things I wasn't going to say, and they didn't really listen to the one I did. Not on purpose, I'm sure, but it's hard to see things you're not looking for.
I'm not trying to rip on these girls for trying to convert me/get me to come to C4C/whatever, but I'm just saying. Sometimes, it's thought provoking when you're on the other side of the table and you don't feel so much like a person, but a target.
And sometimes, you're playing for the same team anyway.
To be honest, it was almost funny. I was sitting at a table in the area between the library and my next class, making notes in my film textbook with my laptop open. Besides me, the table was empty. Then, two girls came over. Initially I assumed they wanted to ask what the time was or something like that. But they were a little too awkward and hesitant. Eventually though, it came out that they were from C4C and wanted to chat about "spiritual things".
This was clearly a "evangelism training" session for the younger girl. To be honest, I forget both of their names now too...not that I'd name them anyway. But to be truthful, they probably forgot mine too. The older one, a pleasantly pretty blonde, did the majority of the question-asking and was very obedient to her script. I know because I've seen it before. Ask about background, find points of similarity, share elements of own story with at least 40% relevancy, and reference group that you belong to/work with. The other girl didn't say much, other than her name and the occasional affirmative head nod.
Why me? Probably because I'm a non-threatening white girl who looks somewhat academic and also kind of like a softy. All of which are true, which leads me to believe that stereotypes are sometimes not in my best interest.
It was funny because they immediately assumed and were prepared for a background I didn't have, for things I wasn't going to say, and they didn't really listen to the one I did. Not on purpose, I'm sure, but it's hard to see things you're not looking for.
I'm not trying to rip on these girls for trying to convert me/get me to come to C4C/whatever, but I'm just saying. Sometimes, it's thought provoking when you're on the other side of the table and you don't feel so much like a person, but a target.
And sometimes, you're playing for the same team anyway.
29.1.11
Fear(less).
One of my favourite things to ask people is what they're afraid of.
Personally, I think it's one of the best questions because it tells so much. Not necessarily the average, boring fears (spiders, dark, rapists)...all of which are a little unnerving, true, but they're sort of...expected. I like hearing what people are really afraid of. The things that keep them up at night...the nightmares, the subconscious fears, the worst case scenarios. The things that shape the way we live our day-to-day lives, and the things we'll do just about anything to avoid.
And the million times I've asked this question, I've gotten just about as many varied responses. But they all seem to be variations on the same themes:
-fear of losing those you love
-fear of losing yourself
-fear of losing
-fear of weaknesses being exploited
-fear of love
-fear of having no love
-fear of evil
-fear of meaninglessness living
-fear of never being successful
-fear of being wrong
-fear of others having a low opinion of you
-fear of oneself
-fear of being alone
-fear of one's fears being exposed (ironic, under the circumstances.)
And all of these, I think, are valid. After all, the whole reason we have things that we're afraid of is because we have things that matter to us...which is key, in this whole process called life.
Personally, I'm of the opinion that I have way too many fears. Or things that just make me jumpy and nervous in general. It's embrarrassing most of the time. My boyfriend (oh yeah, I have one of those by the way...he's neat) tends to get a kick out of taking any and all opportunities that present themselves to scare me a little bit. I still like him a whole bunch, but I'm sincerely worried that one of these days I'm actually going to pee myself or something. Being jumpy is kind of weirdly amusing and potentially endearing, but there is nothing endearing about wetting your pants unless you're a baby or a significantly elderly person. So I'd prefer that it never happens.
TMI? Probably. Sorry.
Anyway, currently, my most relevant/front-of-mind fear is of being too happy. I don't think it's all that uncommon of a fear, really. It makes sense because, as can be witnessed in so many scenarios, trusting in one's own happiness is often the time when things fall apart. It's true in literature, it's true in life: the time when things are stable is always just before they become unstable. Therefore, I have a hard time really trusting my happiness and fully being in the moment because I'm too caught up in trying to capture it before it goes away. Which hints to an underlying fear of losing it all. And while I know you sometimes have to just be where you are, and take it in, and enjoy it, there's always sort of that fear in the background. I'm working on banishing it, because it's not a significantly enjoyable phenomenon.
I'm completely tired, but I wanted to put this up before I go to bed in order to fulfill New Years resolution of the day. Night night, world.
Personally, I think it's one of the best questions because it tells so much. Not necessarily the average, boring fears (spiders, dark, rapists)...all of which are a little unnerving, true, but they're sort of...expected. I like hearing what people are really afraid of. The things that keep them up at night...the nightmares, the subconscious fears, the worst case scenarios. The things that shape the way we live our day-to-day lives, and the things we'll do just about anything to avoid.
And the million times I've asked this question, I've gotten just about as many varied responses. But they all seem to be variations on the same themes:
-fear of losing those you love
-fear of losing yourself
-fear of losing
-fear of weaknesses being exploited
-fear of love
-fear of having no love
-fear of evil
-fear of meaninglessness living
-fear of never being successful
-fear of being wrong
-fear of others having a low opinion of you
-fear of oneself
-fear of being alone
-fear of one's fears being exposed (ironic, under the circumstances.)
And all of these, I think, are valid. After all, the whole reason we have things that we're afraid of is because we have things that matter to us...which is key, in this whole process called life.
Personally, I'm of the opinion that I have way too many fears. Or things that just make me jumpy and nervous in general. It's embrarrassing most of the time. My boyfriend (oh yeah, I have one of those by the way...he's neat) tends to get a kick out of taking any and all opportunities that present themselves to scare me a little bit. I still like him a whole bunch, but I'm sincerely worried that one of these days I'm actually going to pee myself or something. Being jumpy is kind of weirdly amusing and potentially endearing, but there is nothing endearing about wetting your pants unless you're a baby or a significantly elderly person. So I'd prefer that it never happens.
TMI? Probably. Sorry.
Anyway, currently, my most relevant/front-of-mind fear is of being too happy. I don't think it's all that uncommon of a fear, really. It makes sense because, as can be witnessed in so many scenarios, trusting in one's own happiness is often the time when things fall apart. It's true in literature, it's true in life: the time when things are stable is always just before they become unstable. Therefore, I have a hard time really trusting my happiness and fully being in the moment because I'm too caught up in trying to capture it before it goes away. Which hints to an underlying fear of losing it all. And while I know you sometimes have to just be where you are, and take it in, and enjoy it, there's always sort of that fear in the background. I'm working on banishing it, because it's not a significantly enjoyable phenomenon.
I'm completely tired, but I wanted to put this up before I go to bed in order to fulfill New Years resolution of the day. Night night, world.
6.1.11
Thursday's the new Friday
I sort of realized that, other than updating my resolutions, I haven't really given feedback on how they're going so far...thus far, they have succeeded and I have been proud of myself for not bailing on them yet!
Some of them I kind of sneaked by on: I had a brief ten minute conversation with a somewhat crazy woman at the bus stop (she thinks all politicians should live in trees for at least one day a week and that cellphones are turning the younger generation into robots....the latter of which I kind of agree with, to an extent, but you get my point.) for my make-a-new friend day, and the rest were pretty easy. Being happy was not that difficult--I think that, a lot of the time, it's a lot easier than people think! Or than I do, anyway. I got a challenge with that on the end of the day when I got called in for a 6.5 hour shift and had to ad-lib a uniform since I was locked out of my house (my fault) but it was an adventure and it all ended ok :). Today is pretty easy (since, admittedly, I didn't have any time this morning anyway so makeup was gonna be nothing either way lol..but still, it feels good to succeed, even if it was an easily attained goal haha.
Other than that...I've just been in a really good mood this week :) It's been a crazy past few months...and Christmas was, as usual, filled with some really good times and some really not-so-good ones, but I'm really happy to be back in Ottawa. It was cool going home- I LOVE my family, and there are a few friends who I was really happy to see-but for the most part, it's a reminder that I don't really belong there anymore. So I feel more comfortable/at peace with hanging out in Ottawa for the summer. It's also been nice that my workplace forgot to book me for any shifts this week so I technically don't HAVE to work unless I want to--which I kind of do...I like not being broke haha--but yeah...it's good! I got most of my grades back, which weren't too bad, and I'm mostly looking forward to next semester (not so much this one English class...but everyone should have to take a class they don't enjoy at some point. It builds character (and perseverance) to keep going week after week. I just wish it wasn't year-long. :/) I ALSO am pretty excited for the end of the week (ok, tomorrow) because I have...a date! Yay! haha..don't laugh, but in a way, it's kind of my first one. Sort of...or at least the first one I knew was a date when I agreed to it haha. Technically I guess my first would have sort of been this summer: I told a good buddy of mine in my home town that I had never actually been on one, so he surprised me by bringing a picnic to my workplace as a surprise "date"! haha. Anyway though, this one is different and I'm pretty happy about it. I like this guy, lots. Sooo....that's all I got for today, folks. Hope you're having an equally if not more so awesome day, and I'll catch ya later!
Some of them I kind of sneaked by on: I had a brief ten minute conversation with a somewhat crazy woman at the bus stop (she thinks all politicians should live in trees for at least one day a week and that cellphones are turning the younger generation into robots....the latter of which I kind of agree with, to an extent, but you get my point.) for my make-a-new friend day, and the rest were pretty easy. Being happy was not that difficult--I think that, a lot of the time, it's a lot easier than people think! Or than I do, anyway. I got a challenge with that on the end of the day when I got called in for a 6.5 hour shift and had to ad-lib a uniform since I was locked out of my house (my fault) but it was an adventure and it all ended ok :). Today is pretty easy (since, admittedly, I didn't have any time this morning anyway so makeup was gonna be nothing either way lol..but still, it feels good to succeed, even if it was an easily attained goal haha.
Other than that...I've just been in a really good mood this week :) It's been a crazy past few months...and Christmas was, as usual, filled with some really good times and some really not-so-good ones, but I'm really happy to be back in Ottawa. It was cool going home- I LOVE my family, and there are a few friends who I was really happy to see-but for the most part, it's a reminder that I don't really belong there anymore. So I feel more comfortable/at peace with hanging out in Ottawa for the summer. It's also been nice that my workplace forgot to book me for any shifts this week so I technically don't HAVE to work unless I want to--which I kind of do...I like not being broke haha--but yeah...it's good! I got most of my grades back, which weren't too bad, and I'm mostly looking forward to next semester (not so much this one English class...but everyone should have to take a class they don't enjoy at some point. It builds character (and perseverance) to keep going week after week. I just wish it wasn't year-long. :/) I ALSO am pretty excited for the end of the week (ok, tomorrow) because I have...a date! Yay! haha..don't laugh, but in a way, it's kind of my first one. Sort of...or at least the first one I knew was a date when I agreed to it haha. Technically I guess my first would have sort of been this summer: I told a good buddy of mine in my home town that I had never actually been on one, so he surprised me by bringing a picnic to my workplace as a surprise "date"! haha. Anyway though, this one is different and I'm pretty happy about it. I like this guy, lots. Sooo....that's all I got for today, folks. Hope you're having an equally if not more so awesome day, and I'll catch ya later!
1.1.11
New Years Resolutions
New Years Resolutions are generally sort of lame. I'm aware of this. Most significant changes end up running on momentum and end up exactly the same way they were before, after a while (ever notice that a "revolution" is just a 360 degree turn?) But frankly, I think a little more goal-setting in my life could be a good thing. So, my resolution is to do one goal a day. It might be for the day, it might be a to-do list item, it might be a significant lifestyle change, and it might repeat. But this is what I'm going to at least attempt to do. Wish me luck.
January 1: Today, I resolve to put a conscious effort into looking forward and not backward. Unless I'm driving.
January 2: Today, I resolve that the next time 12:30 AM rolls around, I will not be awake to see it.
January 3: Today, I resolve to make the 9:15 train next Monday. Also, to stop making resolutions that involve time.
January 4: Today, I resolve to be happy, all day. No matter what happens.
January 5: Today, I resolve to be a bit less afraid of people I don't know, and go make one new friend by the end of the day.
January 6: Today, I resolve to go makeup-free and try to not feel self-conscious about it.
January 7: Today, I resolve to make up my mind what I want here, then go for it one way or the other.
January 8: Today, I resolve to be happy without feeing guilty.
January 9: Today, I resolve to spend at least four hours studying for my test tomorrow.
January 10: Today, I resolve to sleep way more than I did yesterday. Not exactly aiming high, but I just want to succeed today.
January 11: Today, I resolve to make it on time for eating breakfast downtown!
January 12: Today, I resolve to do at least three household cleanup jobs I've been putting off.
January 13: Today, I resolve to try and figure out how to tell my parents that I'm dating someone.
January 14: Today, I resolve to find my parents' health insurance number, or figure out when I get my own from work.
January 15: Today, I resolve to appreciate what I have, all the time.
January 16: Today, I resolve to be nice to everyone.
January 17: Today, I resolve to sleep.
January 18: Today, I resolve to go resolution-free for the day. Screw it.
January 19: Today, I resolve that there are better things to do than not sleep. Like sleep. I'm getting eight hours, no matter what.
January 20: Today, I resolve to go to all classes and to be happy about it. Fun Thursdays.
January 21: Today, I resolve to follow the Canadian Health Food Guide exactly.
January 22: Today, I resolve to smooth things over with at least two people who are currently upset with me.
January 23: Today, I resolve to call my mom/dad.
January 24: Today, I resolve to clean the bathroom.
January 25: Today, I resolve to not use facebook before I go to bed.
January 26: Today, I resolve to get ahead in my readings.
January 27: Today, I resolve to get groceries and pay attention to my spending. I will use at least three coupons.
January 29: Today, I resolve to do a blog post about something besides updating the resolution of the day.
January 30: Today, I resolve to be kind to every single customer at work, and be genuinely interested in their lives.
January 31: Today, I resolve to just get through these tests.
February 1: Today, I resolve to join my housemates with their workout routine downstairs.
February 2: Today, I resolve to stay indoors, do some school work, and be glad the weather gave me a day off.
February 3: Today, I resolve to not spend my whole paycheck as soon as I get it. No matter how tempting that may be.
February 4: Today, I resolve to not be the worst white dancer in Cabin.
February 5: Today, I resolve to make it everywhere on time, despite the many things that will make that a distinct challenge :P
February 6: Today, I resolve to not act on my impulses. Wait it out.
February 7: Today, I resolve to make it to my earliest class on time. 9:30 Research methods, I'm coming for you.
February 8: Today, I resolve to be the first person to wish my housemate Catherine a very happy birthday on facebook.
February 9: Today, I resolve to call Loblaws early in the mornin and offer my availability for any shifts this afternoon after class.
February 10: Today, I resolve to complete all of my homework on time, go to school, and not look like a wreck.
February 11: Today, I resolve to enjoy my whole day completely.
February 12: Today, I resolve to wear my shoulder pad dress for at least an hour, despite all feedback.
February 13: Today, I resolve to study for film, relax, and read Psalm 1.
February 14: Today, I resolve to give as much love out as I can. Easier than receiving, sometimes.
February 15: Today, I resolve to give and take evenly.
February 16: Today, I resolve to work on my voids and IPM's at work and do significantly better than previous.
February 17: Today, I resolve to be kind, to work hard, and to get some work done on my research for my papers.
February 18: Today, I resole to wake up promptly and to make meet-the-family as painless as possible for all involved.
February 19: Today, I resolve to hang out with my family tonight and watch movies. No visits.
February 20: Today, I resolve to be 100% honest with myself and whatever my reaction is to seeing some people again.
February 21: Today, I resolve to hold in my impatience with my family, and to just appreciate what I have, not criticize.
February 22: Today, I resolve to do homework, be honest with the doc, and meet some long-standing obligations.
February 23: Today, I resolve to do my best to become un-sick, do homework, and to hang out with my mom and not fight.
February 24: Today, I resolve to get my resume done and sent in for the Ottawa summer jobs postings.
February 25: Today, I resolve to get to bed early.
February 26: Today, I resolve to be responsible and not do anything likely to make me continue being ill :(
February 27: Today, I resolve to call in sick for the first time ever. Because I legitimately am. gahh.
February 28: Today, I resolve to go to at least one class and stay for the whole thing, even if I have to bring a kleenex box.
March 1: Today, I resolve to be pleasant even when I get grumpy. Because I can already feel the grumpy tendencies flowing.
March 2: Today, I resolve to do my lab and to figure out my new non-dinosaur phone :P
March 3: Today, I resolve to do homework, homework, and more homework. Sorry for the repetition, folks. It's gotta be done.
March 4: Today, I resolve to work my butt off at work and leave my cash area extremely clean for the night crew.
March 5: Today, I resolve to do my best to help Paige to have a non-sucky birthday, and to get up early.
March 6: Today, I resolve to refrain from avoiding uncomfortable topics.
March 7: Today, I resolve to go to philosophy with my paper done, and get crackin on mythology.
March 8: Today, I resole to not lose my chocolate bar with this fundraiser promotion! Freeeebies....
March 9: Today, I resolve to finish this flipping essay and just be happy when it's all over. Gahh what a week.
March 10: Today, I resolve to just be done all this homework nonsense.
March 11: Today, I resolve to smile every time I step outside the house.
March 12: Today, I resolve to care more about everyone else than myself.
March 13: Today, I resolve to give unreservedly.
March 14: Today, I resolve to refrain from speaking to people I'm arguing with until I can do so without saying things I'll regret.
March 15: Today, I resolve to spend time outside enjoying the fresh air, without making to-do lists in my head.
March 16: Today, I resolve to say no when I should, all the time.
March 17: Today, I resolve to be prepared for the day when I go to school. As in, have everything with me.
March 18: Today, I resolve to work hard and to give nobody a reason to be mad at me.
March 19: Today, I resolve to eat a lot of food.
March 20: Today, I resolve to study for my exam tomorrow morning. And to get up in time.
March 21: Today, I resolve to go to all classes with full intentions of staying awake the whole time.
March 22: Today, I resolve to hang out with my good buddy S who I haven't hung out with in forever.
March 23: Today, I resolve to finish my FINAL PAPER FOR THE YEARRR before midnight.
March 24: Today, I resolve to sleep in.
March 25: Today, I resolve to be kind to everyone I see.
March 26: Today, I resolve to not show my weaknesses.
March 27: Today, I resolve to not complain.
March 28: Today, I resolve to pay attention in class.
March 29: Today, I resolve to make dinner with Courtney and have a good chat.
March 30: Today, I resolve to check how many steps it takes me to get to the bus stop from my house.
March 31: Today, I resolve to be around.
April 1: Today, I resolve to never pull an april fools joke again.
April 2: Today, I resolve to do laundry.
April 3: Today, I resolve to make two difficult phone calls.
April 4: Today, I resolve to devote time to being quiet.
April 5: Today, I resolve to be as kind as possible to crabby customers.
April 6: Today, I resolve to finish up with my taxes.
April 7: Today, I resolve to work extra hours.
April 8: Today, I resolve to do one selfless action that I do not want to do.
April 9: Today, I resolve to eat three square meals.
April 10: Today, I resolve to study for my exams!!!
April 11: Today, I resolve to make it on time for music practice with Bren.
April 12: Today, I resolve to be successful on my Philosophy examination.
January 1: Today, I resolve to put a conscious effort into looking forward and not backward. Unless I'm driving.
January 2: Today, I resolve that the next time 12:30 AM rolls around, I will not be awake to see it.
January 3: Today, I resolve to make the 9:15 train next Monday. Also, to stop making resolutions that involve time.
January 4: Today, I resolve to be happy, all day. No matter what happens.
January 5: Today, I resolve to be a bit less afraid of people I don't know, and go make one new friend by the end of the day.
January 6: Today, I resolve to go makeup-free and try to not feel self-conscious about it.
January 7: Today, I resolve to make up my mind what I want here, then go for it one way or the other.
January 8: Today, I resolve to be happy without feeing guilty.
January 9: Today, I resolve to spend at least four hours studying for my test tomorrow.
January 10: Today, I resolve to sleep way more than I did yesterday. Not exactly aiming high, but I just want to succeed today.
January 11: Today, I resolve to make it on time for eating breakfast downtown!
January 12: Today, I resolve to do at least three household cleanup jobs I've been putting off.
January 13: Today, I resolve to try and figure out how to tell my parents that I'm dating someone.
January 14: Today, I resolve to find my parents' health insurance number, or figure out when I get my own from work.
January 15: Today, I resolve to appreciate what I have, all the time.
January 16: Today, I resolve to be nice to everyone.
January 17: Today, I resolve to sleep.
January 18: Today, I resolve to go resolution-free for the day. Screw it.
January 19: Today, I resolve that there are better things to do than not sleep. Like sleep. I'm getting eight hours, no matter what.
January 20: Today, I resolve to go to all classes and to be happy about it. Fun Thursdays.
January 21: Today, I resolve to follow the Canadian Health Food Guide exactly.
January 22: Today, I resolve to smooth things over with at least two people who are currently upset with me.
January 23: Today, I resolve to call my mom/dad.
January 24: Today, I resolve to clean the bathroom.
January 25: Today, I resolve to not use facebook before I go to bed.
January 26: Today, I resolve to get ahead in my readings.
January 27: Today, I resolve to get groceries and pay attention to my spending. I will use at least three coupons.
January 29: Today, I resolve to do a blog post about something besides updating the resolution of the day.
January 30: Today, I resolve to be kind to every single customer at work, and be genuinely interested in their lives.
January 31: Today, I resolve to just get through these tests.
February 1: Today, I resolve to join my housemates with their workout routine downstairs.
February 2: Today, I resolve to stay indoors, do some school work, and be glad the weather gave me a day off.
February 3: Today, I resolve to not spend my whole paycheck as soon as I get it. No matter how tempting that may be.
February 4: Today, I resolve to not be the worst white dancer in Cabin.
February 5: Today, I resolve to make it everywhere on time, despite the many things that will make that a distinct challenge :P
February 6: Today, I resolve to not act on my impulses. Wait it out.
February 7: Today, I resolve to make it to my earliest class on time. 9:30 Research methods, I'm coming for you.
February 8: Today, I resolve to be the first person to wish my housemate Catherine a very happy birthday on facebook.
February 9: Today, I resolve to call Loblaws early in the mornin and offer my availability for any shifts this afternoon after class.
February 10: Today, I resolve to complete all of my homework on time, go to school, and not look like a wreck.
February 11: Today, I resolve to enjoy my whole day completely.
February 12: Today, I resolve to wear my shoulder pad dress for at least an hour, despite all feedback.
February 13: Today, I resolve to study for film, relax, and read Psalm 1.
February 14: Today, I resolve to give as much love out as I can. Easier than receiving, sometimes.
February 15: Today, I resolve to give and take evenly.
February 16: Today, I resolve to work on my voids and IPM's at work and do significantly better than previous.
February 17: Today, I resolve to be kind, to work hard, and to get some work done on my research for my papers.
February 18: Today, I resole to wake up promptly and to make meet-the-family as painless as possible for all involved.
February 19: Today, I resolve to hang out with my family tonight and watch movies. No visits.
February 20: Today, I resolve to be 100% honest with myself and whatever my reaction is to seeing some people again.
February 21: Today, I resolve to hold in my impatience with my family, and to just appreciate what I have, not criticize.
February 22: Today, I resolve to do homework, be honest with the doc, and meet some long-standing obligations.
February 23: Today, I resolve to do my best to become un-sick, do homework, and to hang out with my mom and not fight.
February 24: Today, I resolve to get my resume done and sent in for the Ottawa summer jobs postings.
February 25: Today, I resolve to get to bed early.
February 26: Today, I resolve to be responsible and not do anything likely to make me continue being ill :(
February 27: Today, I resolve to call in sick for the first time ever. Because I legitimately am. gahh.
February 28: Today, I resolve to go to at least one class and stay for the whole thing, even if I have to bring a kleenex box.
March 1: Today, I resolve to be pleasant even when I get grumpy. Because I can already feel the grumpy tendencies flowing.
March 2: Today, I resolve to do my lab and to figure out my new non-dinosaur phone :P
March 3: Today, I resolve to do homework, homework, and more homework. Sorry for the repetition, folks. It's gotta be done.
March 4: Today, I resolve to work my butt off at work and leave my cash area extremely clean for the night crew.
March 5: Today, I resolve to do my best to help Paige to have a non-sucky birthday, and to get up early.
March 6: Today, I resolve to refrain from avoiding uncomfortable topics.
March 7: Today, I resolve to go to philosophy with my paper done, and get crackin on mythology.
March 8: Today, I resole to not lose my chocolate bar with this fundraiser promotion! Freeeebies....
March 9: Today, I resolve to finish this flipping essay and just be happy when it's all over. Gahh what a week.
March 10: Today, I resolve to just be done all this homework nonsense.
March 11: Today, I resolve to smile every time I step outside the house.
March 12: Today, I resolve to care more about everyone else than myself.
March 13: Today, I resolve to give unreservedly.
March 14: Today, I resolve to refrain from speaking to people I'm arguing with until I can do so without saying things I'll regret.
March 15: Today, I resolve to spend time outside enjoying the fresh air, without making to-do lists in my head.
March 16: Today, I resolve to say no when I should, all the time.
March 17: Today, I resolve to be prepared for the day when I go to school. As in, have everything with me.
March 18: Today, I resolve to work hard and to give nobody a reason to be mad at me.
March 19: Today, I resolve to eat a lot of food.
March 20: Today, I resolve to study for my exam tomorrow morning. And to get up in time.
March 21: Today, I resolve to go to all classes with full intentions of staying awake the whole time.
March 22: Today, I resolve to hang out with my good buddy S who I haven't hung out with in forever.
March 23: Today, I resolve to finish my FINAL PAPER FOR THE YEARRR before midnight.
March 24: Today, I resolve to sleep in.
March 25: Today, I resolve to be kind to everyone I see.
March 26: Today, I resolve to not show my weaknesses.
March 27: Today, I resolve to not complain.
March 28: Today, I resolve to pay attention in class.
March 29: Today, I resolve to make dinner with Courtney and have a good chat.
March 30: Today, I resolve to check how many steps it takes me to get to the bus stop from my house.
March 31: Today, I resolve to be around.
April 1: Today, I resolve to never pull an april fools joke again.
April 2: Today, I resolve to do laundry.
April 3: Today, I resolve to make two difficult phone calls.
April 4: Today, I resolve to devote time to being quiet.
April 5: Today, I resolve to be as kind as possible to crabby customers.
April 6: Today, I resolve to finish up with my taxes.
April 7: Today, I resolve to work extra hours.
April 8: Today, I resolve to do one selfless action that I do not want to do.
April 9: Today, I resolve to eat three square meals.
April 10: Today, I resolve to study for my exams!!!
April 11: Today, I resolve to make it on time for music practice with Bren.
April 12: Today, I resolve to be successful on my Philosophy examination.
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